Maybe I'll Catch Fire...

So I drove to ogden and back today. I have been having a pretty rough time lately. I have alot of mixed emotions surrounding my dad being on death's doorstep. He has Lou Gerhig's disease and is in the final stages of it. Anyway as I was driving I was listening to my ipod on shuffle and a song came up called Maybe I'll catch Fire by Alkaline trio. I don't know that I have ever heard a song paint a picture of what it is like to deal with addictions. So I thought I would post the lyrics so all of you who read my blog can get an insight of what it is like if you don't already know. 

Here goes:

This house is full of ears,
But I can't talk to anyone.
They've heard this one a thousand times.
Most exciting thing I do,
Hang half way out a third floor window,
And throw lit cigarettes down.

And maybe I'll catch fire. 
Something warm to hold me,
Something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind.
All that evil shit's not hard to find.
I guess I only claim to be nice.

This house is full of eyes,
But I can't look at anyone.
They've seen this face a thousand times.
The most relaxing thing I do,
Hang half way out a third floor window,
And look at rocks if I fall out.

I pray that I'll fall hard.
Something tough to break me,
Something sharp to rip into my insides and bleed out all that pain.
Sorry I don't even know your name.
I guess for me it's easy this way.

Maybe I'll catch fire.
Something warm to hold me,
Something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind.
All that evil shit's not hard to find.
I guess I only claim to be nice.

Sorry for the couple swears in that. I just felt that I needed to post it the way they say it. Hope noone is offended.